Wednesday, February 25, 2009


5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phil 4:5-7

It feels like the cloud is lifting. I dont have anymore answers in my struggly struggleness. Its been a long struggle.... months of struggle... which seems to have come to a head in the last 6 weeks. The burden of the struggle became so much that I didnt know if I could bear it. My husband was worried, my mom was worried, even I was starting to worry about myself.
And then something strange happened.
I opened up about the struggle, earnestly poured out my heart to God on several occasions. Went to him on my knees with my face to the ground and poured out the aches and hurts and confusion.
I dont have an answer yet... I dont know what will be coming... but the burden is suddenly less unbearable.... and I have peace that God is in control of the road...... whatever that road leads to.
I am so thankful to God for peace in my heart today.
Even if that peace were just for today- it is enough.

4 comments:

Sylvia - Mommy said...

Oh Mic. I'm so glad to hear that you're feeling some of that burden lifted.

And thank you so much for your encouragement. Yours words were exactly what I needed.

Love you

Sylvia - Mommy said...

I don't know if you've ever seen this blog. I've seen this through another friends blog and just really felt the need to share it with you. I have no idea what your struggles are about, but I know you are still sick with grief over Faith and hope you find some healing in the words of this mommy.

http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/

Fawn said...

Joy comes in the morning. I love you.

All the world's a stage said...

I am thankful for your break in the clouds. I love you! Happy birthday!!!!